I’ve been absent for a bit. Took a leave of absence from most things social media. Some of it was because I had surgery and needed physical recovery time. Some of it was because I needed some mental recovery time. I’m immersed in the daily routines of providing valuable information. I feel like it is so important to continue to share these daily thoughts with you and so much more. It is honestly the most vulnerable thing I ever do. Literally!
These notes are a look into my soul. Putting them out there is sometimes exhilarating and exhausting. Everything I create, I create alone. It is comforting and painful. It is ritualistic and random. But it is ultimately alone.
I have built this box that I live in and so far there isn’t anyone that has gotten close enough that hasn’t also caused pain. And that is the choice right? In order to feel the true joy, you have to open yourself up for the struggle as well. For some of it, I’m just not ready. The knife is still in deep from the last time I was stabbed. Maybe I will take it out or maybe it will become part of me. I honestly don’t know yet.
For today, my independence is my warm blanket and I think I will stay here just a little while longer. #extremeindependenceisatraumaresponse #lunchboxwisdoms #wendyswisdoms
